In the past couple of weeks I’ve had some phenomenal things happen to me. I went to LA for the #DisneyDreamWorksEvent. Reconnected with some great friends, made some new ones. Saw a slate of amazing films and super secret stuff that Disney has in the works. My blog is doing fairly well and finally my husband received his inheritance and we were able to get out of debt. Then while I was at my layover in Dallas I was talking to my husband. He said “When you get here we are going to your Moms house right from the airport.” Immediately I asked “What’s wrong” He told me I was reading too much into it. Calm down, etc., etc. The whole thing was uber weird b/c my mother and I were not on speaking terms for the past month due to a fight that is even longer than this story. So in the air I was starting to panic. Trying to figure out what exactly was wrong.
Then I landed. Hugged the kids and Brian get in the car and BOOM. He tells me. While I was gone my grandmother had some tests come back and it’s a tumor in her colon. Malignant. The C word. I lose it, but try to regain enough composure to see her and to show it’s not that bad. This is MY grandma Allen. The woman who has practically raised me. The only person in my crazy life who has loved me no matter what I did or said. I knew in the back of my head this day would come. I even knew it was getting closer, but it can’t be now. Can’t be. It isn’t possible. We haven’t bought all of the Elvis Vinyl Record yet. We haven’t walked all of the scenic walking routes in TN yet. We haven’t ate all the blackberries and picked the honeysuckle yet. We haven’t watched Gone With The Wind enough yet. My heart is literally broken in pieces.
She’s in blue in the pic above. So she is getting a few more tests done so we can see how much it has spread and will go from there. I’m glad I have this small piece of the world where I can talk about this and somehow come to grips with reality. I’m still going to be posting, facebook, and tweeting just sporadically. Once everything sinks in I’ll be back more on a regular basis, but honestly knowing you guys are out there helps me more than you can know. I do ask if your the praying type to please include her in yours. Miss Allie Jane. Thanks for being there.