I’ve decided to create a meme…after all we need another one right? This one is mainly for me. I want to put more LIFE into my blog. So once a week LET’S GET REAL. We will talk about REAL issues and what’s going on in the blogospher and the real world. Want to link up? Go ahead! Join in anytime and leave a link and I’ll come give you some comment love. Talk about whatever you want as long as it is REAL.
Well, you all know I recently what through 2 very big losses. They say time heals all wounds and I can honestly say that is true. Now, I did get upset a few times on a Disney World trip. Something would remind me of my mom or I realized I couldn’t pick up the phone and let the kids tell their nano about all the cool stuff they did. As a family, we all have our moments….and that’s ok. I was stressing myself and feeling bad because I felt like I wasn’t being as “strong” as I was supposed to be. Then Brian sat me down and hugged me and told me to let go….that it was ok to cry. So I did. I cry sometimes. Sometimes I’m sad or I miss them both terrible, but that’s ok. That is GRIEF and it took me along time to get it through my thick skull that it was ok to ask for help. I did go to the Dr. and I also got on some anti-depressent for 6 months along with anxiety medicine. That’s ok too. I struggle with keeping my mental health good that I forget it’s ok to have bad days.
Yet, I see the sunshine. I see my kids smiling faces. I saw my husband screaming like a girl at Disney. I realized I still have loved ones all around me and I smiled. So I’m ready. I declare November NO NEGATIVE NOVEMBER. I’m going to be traveling a bunch. I’m going to smile, make memories, laugh again…..and I may cry sometimes too. BUT IT IS OK. I’m moving on and isn’t that what life is all about?